Kindergarten

My little Bug started Kindergarten last week.

My sister reminded me to get the classic picture standing by the door with the backpack on.

I'm pretty sure there is one of me each year in the exact position.

The Grand Canyon

I have always had a desire to visit the famous Grand Canyon.

I drive past it every time I make a trip to Utah, but I've never stopped to have the experience.

So....while we were moving to Utah,

I decided that I wanted to take the boys there.

I vascillated between driving straight through and stopping.

I was bit afraid to do it by myself,

but my strong will got the better of me.

Until we got to Jacob Lake I still wasn't sure that we were going to actually go through with it.

It was adventurous, as most things with my boys are.

After several trips to the bathroom,

a tired grumpy mommy,

and children who didn't seem to care how much I wanted to make this a fun experience.

I was asking myself, "Why did we even stop? Why is this so hard?  How come it's always so much more fun when my mother and sisters are involved?"

I tried...

and I hope I succeeded in creating a positive memory with my kids.

We found a little cabin to stay in at Jacob Lake.

(I'm so glad that I didn't have to unpack the trailer to try to find our little tent)

We made some memories.

....even though it was stressful for mommy.

If at First You Don't Succeed.....

CRY, CRY, AGAIN

The sadness is kicking in.  I have spent many moments with tears.

Luckily I have sisters who love and comfort me.

I will continue to Cry,

and I will also continue to

TRY

Discovery

There is so much excitement in discovery.

I wonder what I shall discover next.

Good Things to Come

This video has brought me so much hope. 

When things are at their worst I want to believe in good things to come. 

Right now I could use a little encouragement. 

In four short months my life has taken a major turn. 

My new husband and I are divorcing.

Someone else moved into the house I was building.

And the boys and I are off on a new adventure.

A few short days ago I packed all of my earthly belongings into the largest trailer my car could pull.

The kids and I drove for a very long time.

Luckily we did not have any car trouble

We stopped in the southern Utah town of Kanarraville so that I could take a picture by the sign.

Then drove the remaining 252 miles to the home where I grew up.

After ten years,

I am finally...

HOME

Stuck

Does it ever seem like no matter how hard you try....

you're stuck?

But instead of going nowhere...

I am going somewhere.

Can anybody guess?

We did stop at the North Rim of the Grand Canyon on our way to somewhere special.

The boys and I are off on a new adventure.

....a new life adventure...



Missing My Blog

 Dear Blog and Fellow Readers,

I know that I have neglected you for a very long time. 

I have good intentions of writing and sharing my story, but many things have gotten in the way.

This year has been an adventure.

Many Blessings,

Many Trials.

&

Sooooooo many memories.

These pictures of my kids were taken a year ago, and they remind me of how I feel.

Like the logs they carry...

I feel burdened.

Trying to pick them up

sometimes I can hold them for a while,

and other times I need a rest.

I've been trying to pick up my life, my feelings, and sometimes I feel like I am going to tip over.

Success will come

and I will carry my burdens even when the tears come.