Apartment Living

Yeah, so I've never lived in an apartment before.

Ok, technically I have, because I lived in one with my parents when I was like 2 or 3.

And I lived on the futon in my friends 1 bedroom when I was pregnant with Bug and still in the Army.

But I don't think those really count.

Because today I am living in a real bonafied apartment. And it's mine.

And let me tell you something about apartments.

They aren't very kind to ptsd.

Privacy-No

Security-hmmmm not so much

Weird noises-Check

Strange lighting-Check

Unknown neighbors-Check

The list could go on and on.

I have a feeling that apartment living may be challenging and healing.

Because I have to Change

Adapt

and

Grow

(ME)

Day 1.5

Today is day 1.5 that we have been in our new home. Sorry I don't have any pictures to post, but my camera went for a swim in the pool at the hotel.

It's cozy, and I'm sure I will just love it once everything is put away.

Stress has been high this month...

Patience has been.....tested....

I wanted to write about my time in Iraq and throw in a couple journal entries from years past, but I've been too busy.

Sending blessings to all.

Love you,

Me

Awww Tender

Change

It is a time for growing, loving, and learning.

I have experienced some incredible healing over the last couple months.

When I wrote about my Orchid I had no idea how my life would change, just as my orchid bloomed and changed.

The plant went through a rather quick life cycle.

One flower opened, then another, and another

until there were 3 blooms

Two buds fell off, but it was still ok.

after the flood it was scorched in the house with all of the heaters and fans.

I thought it might come back to life with a little tlc.

But all of the flowers fell off, one of the leaves is burned badly, and the stem has dried and looks as if it is ready to crumble.

This life cycle came quick.
I'm glad I was able to enjoy the blossoms for a few days.

My life has also been changing.
Tomorrow is a time to start again.
I am moving.
To my first ever apartment.

It feels like forever...

Hello all of my wonderful and addoring fans :)
I thought I would write a quick post before going to bed for the 2nd time tonight.
I fell asleep at nine, woke up at 11:59 and have been awake working on stuff since then.

It feels like I haven't written a post in FOREVER,
and that's because it has been a long time.
I have been focused on the very basic of needs for my family.

The house we were/are??? renting flooded over 3 weeks ago and the kids and I have been staying in a hotel. The novelty has worn off, but I am still grateful that I am not living out of my car or in a shelter somewhere.

I've been so busy and I am tired.

Any prayers would be greatly appreciated